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Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Fear and Honesty in Augusta

My two babies, Mirabelle and Raja
This night I am sitting in my foreign home in this town I never had any desire to move to. I am just being honest here today. I am not well. I am scared. I got a bad virus or infection this past weekend. I got really sick. I always believe we get sick for a reason. Our wellness or dis-ease is all because of our thoughts and actions. It is simply what I believe.


I have been off track. I am growing weary of our HUGE move coming up. I am finding myself emotionally overwhelmed about it. Moving is one of the top 5 stressors of our entire existence. As an Army wife I am made to have to move all the time. I am not at peace with this yet. I am scared and stressed out. That is why I believe I got sick.


We recently found out that we cannot bring our dog with us to my husband's first duty station of Okinawa. She and I have been together for over 10 years. I have no one, as of right now, who I know who can take her for me. This is causing me much sadness and strain.


But I have to believe in every experience is a lesson. That everything works out for the highest good for all involved, always. Even for my dear Raja. Things look bleak right now. This is stressing my body, my marriage and I am quite sure the child and dog feel this sticky, dark energy also.


Thank you blogger for being my outlet. It is my place to say.....I know everything happens just as it should. It is my place to write and publish....that I know what we are experiencing and going through is the very best thing we all could be feeling and learning right now. Thank you words for being wings to my illness, flying away from this body in keyboard clicking.


Thank you to the devine. I believe in divinity, that it is everywhere. Our tough times are opportunities to remember the good. How could we ever know good if bad didn't exist? How could there be brilliant light without any shadow cast? There would be no yin to the yang. The Universe would not have a balance. Perhaps we are here to find out why this precious balance must exist.


To everyone out there ever struggling with anything, I pray for you tonight.


Love,

Becca

8 comments:

  1. Hi Rebecca!!!
    So glad you popped by my blog!! Thank you for the compliments - so glad ya like my artwork.
    Reading this post....I could feel your pain from here!! I wrote something like this not long ago - "Needing some Help" post on my blog. I think the same way you do - that there is a purpose to what ever is going on and I cling hard to that - I have found it to be true every time. Yet, when you are in the middle of it all - sometimes ya just need to vent and let it out. It's hard to see the good stuff sometimes.
    I do believe Bella - you will find a comment or two from here on my Ninja post, is in Japan and is coming back soon. Maybe she can give you a little help with the move!?
    I love my bald headed Army(Guard) guy too - lol. Am into Yoga and am a Reiki practitioner. Lots in common there!! I would love to see your artwork!! The artwork keeps me sane - lol. Great blog!!
    Hope you are feeling better soon!!
    Namaste, Sarah

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  2. BTW - your kiddo is darling!!!

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  3. Hi Rebecca. Thanks for popping into my blog - I'm glad you liked it. Building the Japanese Garden keeps me grounded in so many ways and the tea house will be my treatment/therapy room. I can't wait!

    I know life is difficult for you right now - I too can feel the pain, but remember that this too shall pass.

    I'll send you some reiki to help ease things for you, but you also need to get some echinacea tablets(from a health food shop)to build up your immune system. You need to be firing on all cylinders for your move and to cope with the next few weeks or you'll just get ill again.

    Take care of yourself.

    Liz

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  4. Thank you both ladies!!!! I am so excited to have new blogger buddies! I shall visit your sites often and I am so sorry your first impression of me is the sick one! HA! Hope you visit me again too, you can hopefully see my more positive side and Sarah, you can see the beginning of my art work body starting today!
    Love and be well!!!
    And yes, echinacea is my best friend!!! THANK YOU!!!
    Bec

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  5. Whoo hoo - loved the artwork!!
    Don't for a minute hesitate to share a rough day - we all do - on any given day you will find a post like this on my blog too!! Let fly girl.
    We are thrilled to have you join the group.
    Namaste, Sarah

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  6. I really think I was meant to read this. My brother and his family moved to Switzerland for about 6mo and we have their black lab. Last night we had a crazy thunder and lightening storm and their dog started crying and crying, then my dog started barking-so both dogs were going crazy and woke up the kids. I was a little grumpy anyways wishing I was with my husband at phish, but I kept thinking I can't handle two big dogs with the kids what was I thinking. Then I read your blog and realized of course I can handle it, they love this dog so much, miss him so much, and they are entrusting us with their baby! Thank you for giving me perspective. This morning I am still sleepy, but am watching the dogs playing, kids are happy, and I now feel so good that we have Rocket. I hope you find someone who will take care of your baby. Tell Megan she needs to-that is what family does! That is terrible that you can't take him. When Alex and I moved to Costa Rica I felt lost until our dog arrived then everything felt right.

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  7. Thank you so much for your thoughts Jennifer!!!! I really appreciated hearing about your experieces!!! And please keep in touch! I think we have 99.9% sure found some good friends to take my pooch!!! So happy and it means SOOOOOOO much :)You are a goood sis ;)
    Thanks Bec

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  8. Hey - I just wanted to let you know that I read your blog for the first time today and I'm so sad that you have to give up your dog. I've had to give up dogs in the past and it HURTS. We recently took in a dog that someone was giving away and it has been a great healing for us, because this dog doesn't seem to feel abandoned AT ALL! She was with her previous family for 2 years and doesn't appear to be looking for them at all. I used to worry that my dogs were feeling sad, but now I don't think so! :-) Anyway, great blog, keep it up!

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